After a workshop with Mamady Keita I am feeling very quiet and just calm with drumming. Drumming and me. My life’s experience with it so far, the different pulls it has had on me. I am currently thirty, and currently feeling calm: that I can play, keep playing and developing and learning and listening and expressing. And also: I don’t have to. For some reason this is very calming and freeing and easier than some of the more ambitious times when I was younger. Ambition is great and I look forward to more of it: but. But, for example, I don’t want or need to become totally proficient at djembe, so it is kind of freeing to learn something that I don’t feel as intensely for. Drumming, yes, rhythm, yes, celebration and joy and experience, yes. But I don’t have to do this particular style, I don’t have to do everything. I can do some things just on an experiential level, without competitiveness or self-judgement or self consciousness. Hurrah!